she is somebody wife now

dear husband nana!
plss take a gud care of her,,kadang2 she will be a bit annoying..heeee tapi dye sgt lovable sgt caring..i love her so much and its hard for me to let her go..but for her happines im willing to let her go for you..u rae so lucky having her as ur wife..lucky us andiqina having u as our lovable besfriend..hope our friendship will last forever until the day we close our eyes..

saya tawu saya dalam hati ada taman

saya rasa awak buat saya tersipu malu yang ala gedik tuh bila awak tgk saya..*malu..haih
saya dapat tengok awak dari jauh..walaupun hati sgt ingin peluk cium awak..pegang awak2 kuat,tiap2 hari tgk hari..tapi saya tak mampu..saya mintak maaf awak terlalu indah buat saya..setiap kali nmpak awak haty saya jadi tak menentu..saya rindu awak..saya sangat memrlukan awak tapi apa yang saya punya sekrang pon saya dah bersyukur..tolonglah murah kan rezeki supaya saya dapat buat awak jadi hak milik saya!

saya nak ini!!!!!

cuba jangan..

cuba jangan busuk hati sangat boleh??awak sangat cantik..muka putih melepak awak tuh tak sesuai lah kalaw suka mengata orang belakang..sangat macam tak best kan..jangan risaw kawan saya suka je bukan sampai jatuh cinta..tu kan hak dia..hati dia perasaan dia..kenapa awak kena sebok-sebok?? tak perlu rasanya..kalaw betul dia salah betulkan dengan nada yang agak sopan ye..bukan jelingan awak yang sangat mengancam tuh..tawu dah awak memg sgt cantik bila buat mcmtuh..tapi kalaw awak senyum lagi 1000 kali cantik..maaf lah bukan niat menyakitkan hati tapi mengingatkan..terima kaseh di atas sikap awak perihatin dengan kawan sy tuh..

hey you adorable

every words that u said to me there is a million meaning in it..i'll try to figure what the meaning is..i'll try to be as perfect as i can for you..u just another chapter in my life..appreciate that ..thanks for stopping by and give ur strength to me

stalker habis

u are starting to create a mess in my life..boleh shooooohhhh jauh2 tak??tak perlu nak sebok-sebok rasanya kat page orang..u have ur own life and i have my own life..so rasanya better both of us jaga kehidupan masing-masing..may be the way u think i the one who should be blame..but maaflah u the one who create me to be like this..so plss move on ,dun have to turn back and tell everyone the mistake i've done..because u are not that perfect,so do i...so im in the phrase where i've to change everything..move on to the next phrase in my life..tawu lahh awak bagus,better than anyone else,tp jangan riak sangat..takot jatuh nanty tak boleh bagun lagi..thank's for everything..

owh i've deactivate my Fb acc for awhile..thousand apology dear friend's

i adore you

u stare at my eyes hoping that it will sparkle back one day..now is already sparkle ,sparkle with tears..this heart is starting to melt because of you..

can i say: "i adore you just the way you are"

cant stop loving you

i miss them..this is my madu
im talking to the moon to send my regard for you..
friend's come and go..but accept them
u stay behind me and try to catch me if i fall down..
zeeeeliiion thank's you wahai madu saya!!!

try to forget

adapting new life as a single is way better rather living the person who doesn't know how to appreciate you..life can be more easy if we make the right decision..from the experience you will learn to choose what the best for you and not the best for you..creating a space in your heart that only belong to you..space that built strength when you feel scared,empty,tired and etc..experience will give the answer to make a very good decision..i've learned alot from past experience..pls open ur heart and eyes too look everybody around you..there many people that love you rather than "the person"..i dun even want you too close my life anymore because there nothing left between me and you..u are my past experience and i learned alot from that..i have to move on because i dun want to be a pathetic girl..hey heart plss be strong enough to face this journey because it wont be easy for us..

ehemm

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

this is bella not dira!!

Mari kita pasang telinga dan buka mata. jaga jaga ye dira ;)

p/s hanya mereka yang ada di situ sahaja yang tahu. oops ada jugak yang buat2 x tahu. x nak cakap hai dah. hahaha.


much love <3
bellahusnamaryamciantek

i envy you my dear

she's getting married like almost 1 month jew..dah jumpa soulmate katanya..jels eh babe..my dearest madu gula garam friend is getting married soon..alhamdulillah..we have known each other 8 years since form 1 until now..our friendship is still strong and we love each other more ..cant stop loving them ,because they are superbly adorable..

is all about Bella!

today is Bella graduation day..congrats to u my dear..ehem she's single and available..everyone who want to know bout her can ask me eh...ehehhe she's from Unikl melaka..taking bachelor biotech engineerg kot..cant remember that thing..since today is Bella i will post her picture..(tanda penghargaan untuk dia)

congrat's to you dear

pentingnya awak..

Awak-awak disekiling saya ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kaseh kerana menyayangi saya..kaw memg perasan kan..hahah awak2 sekalian sgt penting dalam hidup saya..

tidak akan pernah saya berhenti menyayangi awak2 sekalian

i love u<3

new faces

mari2 saya perkenalkan rakan2 baru saya..ehem...
1)bella: suka ketawa tak ingat dan seorang yang sangat ceria(ehem)
2)husna: pendiam orang nya tapi kadang2 je taw..ahahha
3)maryam: dia orang libya..pernah ckap"i'll never eat rice again" tapi sekarang bila lunch dia cakap"can we eat rice".heeeee
4)lan: okay maaf gadis2 dia sudah berpunya..haha..

berhabuk!!

since dah lama menghialngkan diri from this blog..im sorry for my kehilangan and my blog dah strt berhabuk bertimbun-timbun..im starting my life as student ryte now..no more duduk umah without doing nothing..my life i s started to changefrom in relationship to single people..wooot wooot..im happy ,alhamdulillah..the most improtant for me know is creating the most gorgeous single life ever..ngeh..im sorry dear reader for not updating my blog..saya tawu saya sgt annoying..;)) i will to keep update myblog yeh..ta janji ok..everything seem to be normal dah..meeting new people is really fun..i will tell u more later..more picture will come..soon..

selamat ary raya

since da berabad ta post anything,disini saya NURUL NADIRAH BT JAMALUDIN ingin mengucapkan selamat ari raya..pandu kereta hati2..mohon ampun dan maaf andai terkasar bahasa tersilap bicara..

tiap hari sayang

my new baby kitten yang rase nak bite macam gummy bear tuh..damn cute;))

meluat

dengan perasaan yang kadang2 bagus ,kadang kurang ini membuat saya rase meluat.aiceh..meluat kerana terpaksa merehatkan diri terlalu lama dirumah..sungguh saya bosan..mase 5 bulan in i terlalu membosankan saya..mahu keluar bersama2 rakan BFF tapi semua sebuk..meluat kuga dengan kesibukan mereka ..haih..so merancang lah kami mahu bercuty bersama2 bulan depan..tapiii terlalu banyak halangn dah niey..haih lagi..sedih kalaw tak jadi..dah berangan nak lepak tepi beach smbil mendengar GOSSIP2 panas,berangan berkaki ayam dipesisiran pantai..sungguh gembira dapat berangn..puas rasenye..heee;))

bff's:mohon jadi ok??heeeeloveya

my 21

since da 21 nak bila lah nak dapat suma ni with my own money ye..

ececceh konon je kaw ni dira kan;))

from your bottom heart

i've listen all what u want to say..my mistake for let u down..that's how u feel..now i realize everything turn to be not soo good huh???it's ok..u've sacrifice everything for me..i really appreciate that..but sometimes i just dun feel the exactly feeling towards u..im sorry for doing that..u are really mean to me..but sometimes the feeling fade away slowly..the gap between us maybe??dear pretty boy u just one important things in my life..i didnt know how to describe but i just know how to remember..u came to my life with the big hope u want,but i cannot give all the things u want from mw..take a time..u have ur own speciallity and i dont even want to compare with u others..but seem want me to be others..sigh..i really messed up this time..not of the other people but from this miserable heart..pls try to understand that our feeling is keep fade away day by day..because of me"u say"..its ok everything that make u feel happy..i will do.i dun sacrifice as much u do but my sacrifice u will relize someday..soon maybe..dear preety boy ,hope u will the right path,the right person that u always want...maybe not me..im sorry..my sorry maybe is not enough for u ..but am really sorry..there too much we have heard from each other..u are wonderful pretty i've ever met..and i wont forget that because u really special for me..realise that pretty boy...

sincerely from "hati"

enough!

i cant stand it anymore..u really make me pissed off..i was hoping that everything will come back to normal slowly,no its not..it's become more worst day by day..stop giving me a hope that everything is fine..stop giving me the strength that u will not hurting me again..stop giving me promise that u will change..enaough is enough..u convince me that u will change one day..the day that u really didnt know isnt it??? how long for me to wait for the day??u really dont know the answer..its my plessure u choose to that but not towards me..i cant accept that..so please leave i just want to live my life with my own..there too many things i have think about..u cant accept me the way am i??im not trying to be other pepople and i wont..supposely i've realize it a years ago..God how this thing can happen to me?? pls give me the strength and the right path..move on jelah dira..banyak lagi benda u have think rather than this things...

cinta

memang lah kata orang mula bercinta manis-manis belaka..konon..da lame bercinta masam masin semuanya kan..heee;)) kalaw betul nak mencari cinta,cari cinta yang betol2 ikhlas..datang dari dalam hati..owh teromantik pulak..sebenarnya nak cakap saya Cintak kan keluarga saya lebih dari segala-galanya..bf pon kalah..ahaha..selagi saya masih bernyawa,jantung masih berdenyut selama itu lah saya akan menyintai mereka..cinta mereka ikhlas..no fake at all..masa susah sama2,senang pon same..mungkin kadang2 anak dara dia tersasar jauh dari apa yang mereka ajar,tapi mereka tetap da di belakang saya kan..semakin hari saya semakin dewasa..macam tak percaya..tapi keluarga saya terutama Abah masih ingat saya kanak 2 lagi..nak berjalan malam pon tak bagi..risaw katanya,bukan senang nak jage anak dara..hihi..kalw boleh saya nak kembali zaman kanak2,senang kan mase tuh..

saya sayang keluarga saya<3

nenek mengamok..

OMG boleh??disebbkan dirinya yang semakin hari semakin lupa dia sentiasa merasakan dirinya masih muda,masih kuat seperti dulu..secara zahirnya mungkin tapi tidak batin..mungkin merindu suami yang sudah pergi..alahi ..nenek betul2 menduga kesabaran dan kekuatan iman ku..sabar separoh adri iman kan..sabar lahhh ni wahai nurul nadirah..dia dah tua..tuh yang selalu dira kata didalam hati..kadang dira sendiri pon kene halau..haish..bebelan nya membuat kita tak senang..kadang2 melihatnya mungkin dia rimas melihat dira kat rumah nya..rumah dia kan...alaaaahai..takpelah..mungkin dugaan dira ,tuh bahagian dia..bahagian dira belum tahu lagi..
kesabaran tahap paling maksima dah ni...bile-bile je boleh meletup...ahaha..takpelah..dira masih mampu bersabar kerana dia dah tua..

what trust is??

kehilangan

hari ini dira dapat call dari mama about 4.30 am..and she said my niece have already gone..im shocked ..im like refreshing my mind back when is the last time i saw her..owh on hari raya..she's really thin and very pale..so i asked her

me:kenapa awak kurus sgt ni

arwah: bru operation apendix

me:laaa..ta cakap pon..

arwah:ni pon telinga ngah pekak sikit,masuk air

we're laughing at each other ,eat together..gelak macam mak nenek..

and today i get a call she's already gone..dye kak long for adik2 dia..and she's suffering tibi and radang paru2..twice shocked..since when laaa..and her mommy said "dia dah masuk hospital since jumaat"..no one tell us bout that..terkilan ta dapat jumpa arwah..mungkin dah terlalu teruk penyakit nya..she's only 19..teenager yang always want to do that she think she can do..semoga Allah meletakkn arwah Faten nurjihan disisi org yang beriman..kerana kamu baik kak long.

alfatihah..

mungkin hari ini dia pergi menemui yang Berkuasa,esok lusa mungkin kita pula ,tiada sape yang tahu....

so dikesempatan,i really ask for ur forgiveness if i had something wrong towards u guys..am really sorry..

is thinking cutting off my hair

my abah will be mad if i said this to him..hee) i think my hair is quiet long right now and tersangat lah messy nye..i really want to do the rebonding but my frens and my family ta kasi..grrrr! da messy sgt..i need treatment for my hair yang boleh make my hair lembut bila ditiup angin..ngeee;p
since my quiet i'll prefer to cut it medium wavy cut just like her..boleh??;)))

dalam hati ada cinta

hush..that what happened nowaday's..merata2 an innocent baby kene buang..dalam hati ada cinta kan..when a women start to fall in love they will love to sacrifice everything for men..same like a man too tapi nak dapat mcmtuh nowaday,1 dalm berjuta lelaki mcmtuh..kan more easy if u tanak bertanggungjawab dun such thing..or if u are ready to be a mother,get married..tak slah pon kahwin awal,da ramai yang buat..why cant a men be responsibility what they have done??before do the "thing's" ,sanggup bertanggungjawab..after dah happen keep it silent,lari ntah kemana..haish..bukan nak cakap diri baik,tak baik sgt pon..but now i realize ta sume cakap orang boleh pakai..belum jadi berani cakap,but bile the things dah jadi diam seribu bahasa..kesian tgk baby yang kene buang..there too many baby kene buang and kid's is being abused..adakah kerana cuaca yang terlalu panas membuatkan sume org jadi panas ??? that so not the reason..the baby and kids are innocent..they didnt know anything..espcially new born baby..
baru gembira dapat lihat dunia and suddenly digigit anjing kemana saja..sakit bukan?? a long2 siiiighhhh..
a mommy or daddy "to be" pls think before u act..
huh;))

this is what should i do;))

Hadapi dengan senyuman
Semua yang terjadi
Biar terjadi….
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
Semua... kan baik baik saja

Bila ketetapan tuhan
Sudah ditetapkan
Tetaplah sudah….
Tak ada yang bisa merubah
Dan takkan bisa berubah

Reff
Relakanlah saja ini
Bahwa semua yang terbaik
Terbaik untuk kita semua

Menyerahlah untuk menang

from now on i have to do dats,no matter what..
a person that smile,person that have beautiful hearts;))
i believe in that..

im better than u

if u can keep it silent for a moment,i can too..i dont want to be weak like before,i always learn how to be a better person day by day..naaah girls..u can do that ,i can too;))

sakit hati

buat mase sekarang aku sakit hati ngn nenek aku..aduhai org tua ni langsung ta nak dengar cakap org..sume salah..letih aku dibuatnya..semakin hari semakin lupe tapi celoteh nye sgt meletihkan..sepanjang cuti aku lebih banyak mendiamkan diri dari bersuara dengn dia..takot2 termarah, terkecik hati pulak..tak pasl2 aku yang berdosa..so zip up my mouth..grrr!

kalaw dulu dia mungkin suka dengan kehadiran,tapi tidak lagi sekarang..setiap kali wajah ku menjelma di muka pintu dia pasti muka nya masam..begitu juga family aku..adat lah kan org tua,itu org tua..keluarga aku hanya menumpang..dugaan kan ya Tuhan.. kadang2 kesabarn aku da berada di puncak paling atas pon..bile aku pandang aku ta sampai hati...

nenek semakin hari semakin lupa..tapi tak lupa beli ikan hari..tuh yang aku pelik..adakah rutin??
tapelah ..tapi agak bankrup mak aku..haish..kdg aru rase.im being a diffrent dira pon ade bile duduk situ..ngeee;P Dira sekarang sudah pandai naek hangin.grrr

if i can,i wish i can scream out loud what i feel rite now..God pls help me..i need u so much..give me strength and patience

short trip

colmar tropcicle..i've been there twice but its damn it beautiful but the weather is not so cold like when the 1st time go there..nice short trip with family..enjoy

cik DIN gorgeous family..ngeee;))

see mama &abah still get a chance to dating kan;p

is trying to puteri gunung ledang..boleh??

Screams Of Frustration

by **Angel**

How I wish I could look back to understand back to when lives were taken back to when families were separated back to when children were murdered I wish I could have helped to save them I wish I could have tried to understand this senseless taking of human life. They are no different than you or I. They did not deserve this pain, this torture. I wish I could look back to understand, to set lives free to learn their pain and frustration. Trying to understand; I can hear their screams I can hear their pain I can hear their fear I can hear a mother's cry when children are shot down Oh, that pain so great, so terrible I can smell the odor, the odor of burning human life I can smell the sweat, the sweat of hard labour I can smell the fear, such an atrocity I see the footage today, trying to learn what happened to them. I watch the films today, trying to comprehend the pain they went through. We all see the pictures, watch the torture, just trying to imagine this tragedy. But the fact is we can't, unless our human life undergoes this. These poor people, my heart cries out but there is nothing I can do. Oh, please hear me. I am so sorry this had to happen to you. Your time is now, it is here, time to rest, time to be reunited and live everlasting in that great kingdom called heaven.

she's did it again..

yes my sister the same mistake she has done last 2 year..Ya Rabbi budak ni..what happen to you??that the 1st question i ask her..she's keep silent all day..and its annoying sgt when a parent get involved with this budak's2 fight..calm down lah aunty..i know u are upset but dun just blame people without u knowing the reson..im not backing up what my sister have done.. but look at ur daughter too..u are a mother and this girl is same age as ur daughter..talk slowly lah with this girl..standard lahh budak2 baru2 nak up ...fight with benda2 yang nonsense..aish..what u did will make the thing worst tawu??..sigh..u aunty/mam/madam or whatever must be the person that can make this girl settle their problem..i know what they have did to ur daughter..and i admit its's wrong for what she has did to her..tapi jgn la memalukan org...that make thing's become more worst..u supposed ta masuk campur macmtuh,u supposed talk nicely with this girl's..and then 1 more things for sure,pls jge ur manner when talk with other parent's..respect sket..u are a mother and talking with other mother with low manner's??soo not cool..huh

20/1/2010

owh let see what have i done yesterday..huurrm saya bgn 9pg ..well agak awal lah kn untuk penganggur seperti saya..heee;) heee then my dad came to granny house to take his beloved watch..so disebbkn sudah terjaga dr tido ,cnnot tido blik daa..melepak kn diri menonton cerita csi and oprah..;)) about 12 o'clock abah call suh amek fon dye kat umah..btw dekat rumah Rawang ok..agak jauh lah kn from Segambut to Rawang..amek kunci drive trus pg Rawang to pick abah fon..thank's to me abah ..heee after take the hp ,trus pegi Ulu kelang anta that fhone kat abah..its easy using the Duke highway.. 15 min cn reach Ampang's..heee..da anta phone,amek abah and melepakn diri bersama abah di Jusco AU.. makan2,jalan2 and anta abah blik to his office..drive trus Nana house ti give her a visit..well before that pg wangsa walk buy chocolate for her.. she's sick but getting better..dye baru kua hspital .operation her apendix..aduhai kesian ini org...heheh dye semakin ok and semakin sihat..Alhamdulillah..baru kua hospital sudah maw jalan2 with her boyfie ..ngeeehh;))

nana: pls take a good care of urself lah dear;))

17/1/2010

today ade wedding at masjid wilayah..since when kat masjid bleh wat wedding?? i didnt know that..heee so my mom dengan bangga nye said"angah pakai tudung nak masuk masjid!..so im wearing tudung today and off to masjid wilqyah..kenyang smpai burrpp;P..and then off to shah alam..ade festival for student yang nak masuk U..so i went there ti check wether or not im suitable enough to apply IPTA..sooo cakap2 with the PETUGAS there..im thinking of going to continue my study at UITM..but2 kalaw dapat..if ta dapat ,i've to find another U lah..got all the pamplet from all UITM,UTM,KLMU, and others..and now im so confused which one should i choose??sigh..then abah said "apply je mane2 kalaw dapat,dapat lah..ta dapat,tape"..so supportive my abah..ngehee..
then went back home.not granny home but my parent home..confused??cmni ..while saya tengah cuty sy kene jga my nenek..tugas berat tuhh..so im currently stay at my nenek house now;))
then after reach rawang when to pasar malam ..buy bihun ir mee hun sup.?? quite confused with the spelling..ngeee..doesnt matter la kan..so now eating and blooging..;)) sudah lame tidak update my blog..