the secret reveal

my fren tell me all the secret mse dulu punyer..kelaka sgt..the thing yg happened ms skolah dlu..ur puppy love la and etc..all the cite terbongkar akhirnye..im like suprise sgt..and heartbroken jugak lah..but sume that secret memang kelaka...heee;)) can i just go back to that time??*wink2*..if cite kat gulfy mawu pecah perot dorg gelak..the gf sgt out loud ble gelak..mawu riuh nanty..hehe..
sgt gembira heard all that thing..i love it..

yes im happy rite now...n i love it weyyyy..

unisel

unisel is having convo..mcm best..im coming convo baby..haha amin harap2 dapat convo secepat mungkin..heee;)) for those yg final sem..gud luck guys...wish u alll thee best..succes k..

u said..

mira,rein,soleha,ina..

the true friend is u can rely and refer to her/him..laaaa aku rindu ko bestie..sgt2..my life is getting harder and harder day by day.. maw jumpa kamu,maw hug kamu,maw cita macam2 sama kamu semua..want it fast..rindu sgt ;)) i wish i can go back to the past and fix my mistake..heee..

bestie sgt rindu..xoxo

im sorry??

easy word to say but hard to explain what the meaning kan..yer lah everyone do mistake same goes to me..x per ..tp when somebody do the bad things toward u pastuh cakap cmni"im sorry tak realize ape yg i cakap""sorry for terbwat aper yg u x suke ..sory for this and that..kan senang to say that word kan..ble buat salah ckap sory then expect yang org itu akan melupakan segalanya..im human not kayu..masih punya persaan dalm hati ini..kalaw betul2 da bersalah admit lah and jgn buat lagi..
ni tak besok2 buat lg then sorry lg..hehe standard la for human yg sering terlupa..including me..ngeh ;)) use the word when kte betol bersalah dan tak kn ulg benda tuh lagi..its ok at least u realize thet u did something wrong dr ta tawu..;))

aku juga punya hati
hati yg kecil..
hati yg sentiase ingin dilindungi dan tidak disakiti..

the situation

location-still at unisel..sigh
time-1.29pm(lapa)

when u seat u have to think??what should u do??where should u go??n other question..hee when the time is come all the question will have their answer..hem so u just have to think n give a time to urself to get the answer la kan..yer that should i do..memikirkan sesuatu yang lebih dr yang saya punyai sekarang..Alhamdulillah..i now realize that kite punyai mase untk berfikir sebaik2nya sebelum membuat keputusan..turn back a little n stay..then make the decision that useful for urself,not other..urself kn..ngeh..;))

bersalah

yer berslah from being jauh dari DIA..kerana ku lupe jalan yg sentiasa dihadapnku..menilai kegembiraan.keseronokan lebih dr keredhaan..andai sje aku pergi dr dunie.kemane akn aku tuju..DIA x penah lupekan aku,aku yg pergi jauh,jauh sgt dr NYA..hina sungguh hamba mu ini..melangkah trlalu cepat sampi terlupe ape yg tertinggal di belakang..kerana aku lalai,aku yg selalu mnyalahkan org laen,aku yg sentiasa memperbodohkan diri dgn benda2 karut..DIA lempar aku dgn segala ujian supaya beringat..tp tidak aku yg serg menyalahkan diri dan takdir..hari ini sekali lg ujian ..aku dicabar dgn kesabarn,cukup2 sabar..kalaw saje kaki ini igin melangkah,aku mau pergi jauh..pergi jauh dr kau tp dekat dgn DIA..aty ini terlalu sesak dgn ujian,kemarahan ,keegoan ..pergi lah kau jauh dr aku,kerana aku terlalu penat bersabar..hati ini terlalu sakit nak menilai betap bgus nya kalaw bersabar..yer cukup .aku penat...

need to be strong

this last sem,penat nyer ta ingat..the project was sgt gile..haish..tired already..need a brek lah..

MUET speaking..

time- 7.30 am
location-fsp

today ade MUET test..hari yg ditunggu da datg..finally..my group member is mel,linda n yul..awesome kan dapat the same people..everybody was asking 'mcmne leh dpt group sme??"ler u go in 4 of member ms dftr then get leh the people..ngeh..wait about an hour,my group punyer turn..before that we were like mcm org dah terel sgt..laughing tak ingat ,read dictionary and the read again n then laugh again..sgt terel kn..everybody was like practice what they want to say,my group +adilah was laugh n bersembag n gossiping..hee;)) the time when my group name is been called mcm2 perasaan ade..nak blik,nak g toilet,nak mcm2 lah..hehe then went to the other room for MUET test..there is 2 person in there,a women..budget takot,kot t ade org pakcik bermisai pulak dlm tuh jd ktorg nyer person that in charge...glad it is not..then the lady give us 1 minute to read the task..the title is 'start a small business.elobrate"..hem write the point and then u have to elobrate the point by urself..nervous ok??im the candidate B..all the candidate must give their opinion..then finish..start the task B pulak..where u have to discuss about the same title n the last u have to give the conclusion of what title do u choose..hee gagap sumenyer..but alhamdulillah everything is ok..

the reason..

happiness is depend how is u being honest to somebody kan..yes i realize that..when we honest we get the sweetness from that..im being totally selfish toward him..x sedar sgt ..im sorry..the thing is i dunnoe how to manage my time anymore..memalukan betul kn,de besar tak reti manage time..sorry again..behave like a kids,yes me..sorry again n again..hee..

by David Munoz

The Smell of your hair
The taste of your kiss
These are the things
That I will always miss

The sound of your voice
The feel of your hand
They affect me in ways
You could never understand

The love in your heart
The peace in your eyes
They make me feel
Like I want to cry

You are a gift
That God gave to me
And I can just feel
That we are meant to be

I'll love you forever
I hope you do too
For it's only a short while
Before we say "I do"

need a break..

yeah that what i need rite now..sometime i feel dat im being a totally jerk..yelah not a good gf..hem kan..what can more i say ..the truth im the big "L"..there too much in this relationship..when someone ur partner have u the one have to be beside him/her..huhu susah nyer..every day i just wish that i make a the best decision ever..the truth is no im not..penat...i just want to go..pergi la kemane saje kaki ini ngin melangkah..jauh dr segalanya..yer itu yg saya mahu sgt saat ni.. juz want to rest n make my heart feel senang..just want to go..jauh from hp,jauh fr aauh dr anybody,jaueh dr masalah,jauh dr headache,jauh dr segalanya...im so pathetic kan..can i just sleep n forget about everything?? woke up the nex day wishing that everything back to normal..ngeh kalaw boleh..miss my atok..the one who laugh what ever i do..a big mistake i did,he just can say"cube lagi SIRAH"..
yeh the person yg alaways complain if i cook for him..heee..Ya Allah lemah sgt hamba mu ini..merindui sesuatu yg sudah pergi jauh..

miss u atok!! Allahyarham HJ DOLLAh BIN KAMAL
moga dicucuri rahmat keatasnya..

happy..

im happy so much...my frens was pregnant..she become a mummy..lol best kan 1st baby..the due date was in February 2010..x sbr nyer..i will become untie lah kan..hihi im happy for u dear..
yeay! im waiting for bf to called,tp x call pun..yer lah bz sgt ktenye..hem xpe lah..

today menu..

• sardin (cook by me)
• tomyam(beli)
• ayam goreng(da siap punye)
• tekur dadar(linda cook)

sedap ok..kenyang sgt..ngee

waiting..

esok ade midterm..mdm latifah class..try to understands the note,tp tak msuk jugak..
haish..im so tired..cant we just cancel the midterm??if can lah..the B is at bentong lg..budjet terel la dats guy no need to study..frankly speaking im so tired to membebel at u!! fahm tak?? ngeh..i've only have a week to study the MUET things..so desparate looking for the simple article for my MUET..susah kot..as my parent know dats their daughter always prepare last minute..cant throw that habits..hee

waitin 'B' to called..

for bee

Oooooh ooooh
I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointin' out my wrongs
i never needed pain,i never needed strenght
My love for you was strong enough you should've known.
I never needed you for judgement
I never needed you to question what i spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself, I don't know why you think you got a hold on me.
And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything that you can do.
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so look at me , listen to me because,

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how i act to what i say
i never needed words, i never needed hurt, i never needed you to be there everyday
I'm sorry for the way i let go
Of everything i wanted when you came along
But i am never beaten, broken, not defeated
I know next to you is not where i belong
And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver, so you will listen when i say baby

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying ooh ooh
No more pain
No more hurt
No more tryin' Oh Oh Yeah
Because

I don't want to
Stay another minute
I don't want you
To say a single word
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
There is no other way
I get the final say
Because
I don't want to
Do this any longer
I don't want you
There's nothing left to say
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby Hush Hush

Yeah Oh
Hush Hush, Hush Hush
I've already spoken
Our love is broken
Baby

late nite

time:2.31 am
location:hostel

working out bout our project..already in a good progress..alhamdulillah..the group is doing great..hee sgt tired..

winner!!

yeay ,today is was a very a fun day..we have a badminton competition at IPIS..between mentee..the game was start at 4.oo pm but the student came almost 5.00 pm..as usual lah..ngeh.. main2 sampai tak hengat dunia..best sgt..tp lenguh tgn ..dat wat happen when redah je main..hee..

my members is adila,botak,tan,lim and yul..the mentee of miss amylia..we were fiaght between mentee en fauzi n pn marina..what a awesome game..duduk for a while ,then suddenly the speaker were saying this"mentee miss amylia go to final terus,menang tanpa bertanding".best kn..hee then i was fight to en fauzi mentee..ngeh we win owh dats battle..sweating gle..then bf cme with a big smile..ngehh..support me la knon,while he laughing at me ble x dapt smatch that ball..the game were end almost 8.30pm..the maghrib pun ktorg lggr,syok sgt main..heee.. after that go to kg with bf buy nasi lemak+smbal sotng+ayam goreng..yeey TERBAIK..hee

tanx for the group member..were win..haha

n u bf tanx for support kn;))
ngee..love2..

penat..

hem..tried giler today..1st go to sg buloh to find florist tp tak jumpe..then off to selayang..the florist there sume wat hantaran not the real florist..that make bouquet for wedding,valentine and any occasion..sigh..tired..the minyah is almost empty..the driver/bf still saying"sempat smpai punyer,jgn risaw"..risaw of coz ,bwtnyer mati cmner??haish..he was so confident..hem lelaki x nak dgr ckp his gf ni..then after pusing slayang,tak jumper jugak florist shop..ngeh kdai bunga pun susah cari..we off to Damansara..luckly ta jam..bf was so tired n hungry..hehe..suh mkn goreng pisang ,belagak..then starving,pdn muke..almost every damansra we go..there still no florist shop..gle aper??stu pun xde..sigh..then we off to the OU .finally found one florist..happy kowt...then craving for food..almost 7pm,eat at pizza milano..

the menu is..
5 spagetti
5 coke+mirnda

total=rm50 ,berbaloi kn??

9.00 pm

kenyang already..hee..went off to unisel..tired,ngantok +kekenyangn..ngeee;))

tenx boyfie for being our driver..heee
luv u..

CLASS IS CANCEL

yeay..class cancel today..no wonder lah berat sgt mate nak bukak..hee tanx cik zahrul..
i've been asking to my self is he the one??ngeh..mcm ragu2.. mama .abah already noe about us..but the things is ragu2 lah..im tired having fight and then get back to normal ..like nothing happen..
marah2,yelling to each other,bentak2 pastuh ok..that what couple means ek??..he is ok always..but me ,the one who to be blame...since the day i meet him i noe he can be a good partner for me..

but now is getting fade away..hem.. what should i do?? pening kan..

now:

• get ready to meet pn rashidah at 2.oo pm
• mkn2 at cfe my jam
• blik
• sleep
• then do project

hope sucessfull our project

FIGHT!!

sumpah x syok..asyek kne mara..
dont u have feeling ape yg i rse??
malu lah bgado for the bende kecik..
i need u to understand me..

tired enough all this gado2 stuff..
cannot live mcm ni lg..
ill try to understand u but u dun ever try pun kn..

rindu arwah atok..
ta penh mara aku mcmni..
atok angah rindu atok..sgt2

herm..lets start
today:
meeting with cik fauzi..he tell us that he no longer our HOP..means dat no more guraw senda with HOP..hem..the meeting is all about final projek..sumpah susah.. bru listen the guideline da pening..he said dats we dun have much time lg..well as he noe dat his student suke wat keje last minute..heee..

the project:

1. need to do proposal..tp x tawu guideline lg
2. cr any business to do in online
3. bwt keje smpai x tido untill last presentation
4. wat bus plan n bla,bla....

all dat are required..sumpah penat,pening n neeed so so so much energy..
rindu besties..xoxo..muaxie

bestie i need u ..
pls do text me..
p/s i love u

getting ready for meeting tonite..hee.. asyek meeting ntah bler2 nak dinner nyer.. im tired enough..
bf still with another sassy gf name DINA MORALES.. envy sgt with their r'ship.. ngeh..mkn pun nak same2.. the sassy gf pun stu,realize or not that im his gf?? daaa...

epy for both of you.;((

penat lah today..x bwt ape pun tp penat..td silent my fon then bf calling like 7 times..ngeh..im sorry dear..x sengaja.. the final project is getting in progress.. tp mcm susah..haish..how can people make a system easily??..tired enough all the it thingy.. hurm.. envy sgt for the people yg ade practical..

all that..

still tired looking for tutor..
penat giler..lenguh kaki..

linda went to derma drh..
pastu muntah2..xmkn afta derma..
hem..

not ready to derma drah..umm
sumpah takot..
macm skit jer look at the jarum...ngee

look at atoks gamba..
miss him..
sgt2 lah..
the best atok i have..
rindu nyer...

calling bf..still tido..
gler btul da tgh hri x bgn lg..
pent lah sgt..haish..
its ok..

major headche

i was thinkg in giving up in this relationship..
penat la always gado bende2 kecik..
the things goes samer jer..
fight,get mad ,merajok,upset..
thats all..hee

bosn kan..
the things is i'm not request bende bukn2 from him..
just nak ur little time jer..ngeh~

still consider to get mad..
but too much in luv..
perhaps he will understands..

strory about a men

he never know the erti about senang in life..
kerja kuat as driver bus to mke sure all his kid happy..

chilhood time..
pick me up at my house using his bus mini..
tame my sibling jalan2 around k.l..sgt best..
take a good care of me n sbling too..
mintak jer he will try to dapatkn..
thats my atok..

his 'childhood time'
i n my family take care of him pulak..
i bwk dye g hospital every time..
xnak org laen accept me..

i miss all that moment..
skang every month i dont hve to bring anybody to hospital anymore..
he's gone..
pergi jauh entah di mane..
insyaALLAH disisi kalian yg beriman..

for u atok...
i miss all that moment so much..
ketahuilah cucu mu ini sgt menyayangi kamu..

Al-Fatihah for u..
moga Allah melindungi kamu..

keep standing

a moment that we know we going to loose smebody,then we will realize how precious they are..

yeay.. i noe know they are very important to my life..