from your bottom heart

i've listen all what u want to say..my mistake for let u down..that's how u feel..now i realize everything turn to be not soo good huh???it's ok..u've sacrifice everything for me..i really appreciate that..but sometimes i just dun feel the exactly feeling towards u..im sorry for doing that..u are really mean to me..but sometimes the feeling fade away slowly..the gap between us maybe??dear pretty boy u just one important things in my life..i didnt know how to describe but i just know how to remember..u came to my life with the big hope u want,but i cannot give all the things u want from mw..take a time..u have ur own speciallity and i dont even want to compare with u others..but seem want me to be others..sigh..i really messed up this time..not of the other people but from this miserable heart..pls try to understand that our feeling is keep fade away day by day..because of me"u say"..its ok everything that make u feel happy..i will do.i dun sacrifice as much u do but my sacrifice u will relize someday..soon maybe..dear preety boy ,hope u will the right path,the right person that u always want...maybe not me..im sorry..my sorry maybe is not enough for u ..but am really sorry..there too much we have heard from each other..u are wonderful pretty i've ever met..and i wont forget that because u really special for me..realise that pretty boy...

sincerely from "hati"

enough!

i cant stand it anymore..u really make me pissed off..i was hoping that everything will come back to normal slowly,no its not..it's become more worst day by day..stop giving me a hope that everything is fine..stop giving me the strength that u will not hurting me again..stop giving me promise that u will change..enaough is enough..u convince me that u will change one day..the day that u really didnt know isnt it??? how long for me to wait for the day??u really dont know the answer..its my plessure u choose to that but not towards me..i cant accept that..so please leave i just want to live my life with my own..there too many things i have think about..u cant accept me the way am i??im not trying to be other pepople and i wont..supposely i've realize it a years ago..God how this thing can happen to me?? pls give me the strength and the right path..move on jelah dira..banyak lagi benda u have think rather than this things...

cinta

memang lah kata orang mula bercinta manis-manis belaka..konon..da lame bercinta masam masin semuanya kan..heee;)) kalaw betul nak mencari cinta,cari cinta yang betol2 ikhlas..datang dari dalam hati..owh teromantik pulak..sebenarnya nak cakap saya Cintak kan keluarga saya lebih dari segala-galanya..bf pon kalah..ahaha..selagi saya masih bernyawa,jantung masih berdenyut selama itu lah saya akan menyintai mereka..cinta mereka ikhlas..no fake at all..masa susah sama2,senang pon same..mungkin kadang2 anak dara dia tersasar jauh dari apa yang mereka ajar,tapi mereka tetap da di belakang saya kan..semakin hari saya semakin dewasa..macam tak percaya..tapi keluarga saya terutama Abah masih ingat saya kanak 2 lagi..nak berjalan malam pon tak bagi..risaw katanya,bukan senang nak jage anak dara..hihi..kalw boleh saya nak kembali zaman kanak2,senang kan mase tuh..

saya sayang keluarga saya<3

nenek mengamok..

OMG boleh??disebbkan dirinya yang semakin hari semakin lupa dia sentiasa merasakan dirinya masih muda,masih kuat seperti dulu..secara zahirnya mungkin tapi tidak batin..mungkin merindu suami yang sudah pergi..alahi ..nenek betul2 menduga kesabaran dan kekuatan iman ku..sabar separoh adri iman kan..sabar lahhh ni wahai nurul nadirah..dia dah tua..tuh yang selalu dira kata didalam hati..kadang dira sendiri pon kene halau..haish..bebelan nya membuat kita tak senang..kadang2 melihatnya mungkin dia rimas melihat dira kat rumah nya..rumah dia kan...alaaaahai..takpelah..mungkin dugaan dira ,tuh bahagian dia..bahagian dira belum tahu lagi..
kesabaran tahap paling maksima dah ni...bile-bile je boleh meletup...ahaha..takpelah..dira masih mampu bersabar kerana dia dah tua..

what trust is??

kehilangan

hari ini dira dapat call dari mama about 4.30 am..and she said my niece have already gone..im shocked ..im like refreshing my mind back when is the last time i saw her..owh on hari raya..she's really thin and very pale..so i asked her

me:kenapa awak kurus sgt ni

arwah: bru operation apendix

me:laaa..ta cakap pon..

arwah:ni pon telinga ngah pekak sikit,masuk air

we're laughing at each other ,eat together..gelak macam mak nenek..

and today i get a call she's already gone..dye kak long for adik2 dia..and she's suffering tibi and radang paru2..twice shocked..since when laaa..and her mommy said "dia dah masuk hospital since jumaat"..no one tell us bout that..terkilan ta dapat jumpa arwah..mungkin dah terlalu teruk penyakit nya..she's only 19..teenager yang always want to do that she think she can do..semoga Allah meletakkn arwah Faten nurjihan disisi org yang beriman..kerana kamu baik kak long.

alfatihah..

mungkin hari ini dia pergi menemui yang Berkuasa,esok lusa mungkin kita pula ,tiada sape yang tahu....

so dikesempatan,i really ask for ur forgiveness if i had something wrong towards u guys..am really sorry..